What Lies Beneath

Started this morning with a work out that was slow and steady. Fifteen minute calorie burn on the elliptical, 40 minute HIIT with a two minute sprint between each set, ended with a 1 mile run and stretching. Some days I wake up and the idea of just getting out of bed feels hard. In those moments I have to push myself that much harder, but a good work out always helps.

Saturday morning steadfast. For breakfast: a bagel with cream cheese, 1 over medium egg, a bowl of fruit, and a protein shake. Can’t forget the coffee! It took me a year to get used to drinking coffee with minimal sugar free creamer. Comment suggestions.

Today’s quest: can I conquer cleaning and picking up my yard before a family bbq? Can this happen without my children screaming, fighting, and demanding? Sometimes I ask silly questions just to bring awareness to the reality. Kids are never not screaming, fighting, or demanding. A load of laundry, if I must. And maybe later, if all is a success, I’ll enjoy some music and reading in the hot tub. “But won’t your book get wet Ella?” Mind your business. It might 😂.

Sometimes healing and recovering is embracing slow burn Saturdays for what they are. Sitting in the quiet moment and accepting that not every day is going to feel like an easy day, but it can still be an okay day. We do the damn thing. We get in the small work out, we make the breakfast, we clean the house, and when the day passes we sit in the victory; however that looks. Today it was hard to even want to get out of bed. But this feeling will pass, just like the day will pass and tomorrow a new.

Ella